So sad!

Eden stayed with friends for a few hours yesterday so that I could go to professional development. She cried when I left her, but not for long, and did great while she was there. Then I came back. As soon as she heard my voice, her lip went out. I held her and she cried and cried. Big tears. Lip out. It was so sad! As soon as she would calm down, I would talk to her, and she would start again! It broke my heart!

We have been together constantly since January. I rarely put her down. I am of the opinion that holding a baby all the time isn't going to spoil it, even if the baby is perfectly healthy. But since I haven't left her, she has forgotten that I come back for her. And since she has been abandoned several times in her short life, me leaving her and never coming back is a very real possibility in her mind.

I start work in a month. The first few weeks will probably be very long while she gets used to being away from me all day again. I'm so not looking forward to it!